too much, my phone blog died.

I can't be going to express every single shit out here anymore. I just going to summarise this trip in 3 points.
DREAMS, I had soooooooo many dreams even wet dreams and even of the past. The 3 weirdest dream I had was , the dream of silvia (dirty dream) she's not that innocent as we thought of. li hui (talking) and eventually her. Her face I could imagine was even much clearer then I could expect. Should research on how dreams work , mentally or psychologically
EXPECTATIONS. having so many expectations from just one person during the trip. It just rise my expectation unconsciously and when things get slowed down, my feelings got jumbled up. It never stop , but jumping up and down. Its just exactly how it felt like in a relationship, I dun get why I had that either. I got fucked up. Also, promised to exchange Christmas gifts though Itsjustsolife.
LIFE, memories not just her, but also I realised how important is life. Start dieing and living , and stop living with regrets. DO IT NOW , NOT TOMORROW. Having old same problems with my own thinking and feelings. There are full of fishes in the sea. In addition, my 'injures' seemed not cured , and the same problem with my heart, and those symptoms still arrive. Let's get out of the mindset. >CAREER<
Honestly, he's my idol. He always is, but I just can't start opening my mouth and telling him. I got to start to , before I start to regret. Went temple , and saw these 4 values and start practising them in my inner. Always, praying for my family safety and happiness even if it would be to the extent of my sacrifice.
Joy,Kindness,Peace,Fate.
My new year virtue would be, No matter how much effort you had gave, dun expect returns.

It's lack of one .

Previously was with her and now not . Cheers for the better . Hope to update in china. Weeee

MORNING

It's quite surprising how I dreamt about you, and asking me for pleasure. In the dreams, your being rejected. oh well, it was merely just a dream, it wasn't true. That's just the beginning of my day (:

CHARICE!!

Spent the day on driving lesson and just dota . CHARICE!! I love her songs . I can't get this over. Is it just the change of my habit or am i missing someone? Yeah, someone is not going to be there for me anymore. It would be fake if I said , it didn't bothered me. I start to understand mine loss of her, someone's care. My life seems to be moving daily with just 2 things, sports and computer. I hope this coming trip to china, would fill my mind with memorable stuffs with my family and stop the thinking of things that are lost. itsjustsolife.

thankful day

Okay, I guess that shall not be any more major changes to the looks of it . Interesting day I had with Silvia. Luckily, someone asked me out, I m rotting at home ~_~ . 4 Thanks to Silvia, Firstly, I appreciate you looking up to me. Secondly,thanks for your ice cream treat and your invitation to christmas party even though I was not be able to go. Thirdly, you gave me a inspirational thought of making a revive of my blog It seems so fake, but it is that real. Maybe one day, I will start revealing my blog to her. HA!

the day when someone said a small pencil case is wastage of space in her bag

In fact, I got so many things in my mind. Had my temper worsen? attitude changes ? You managed to rage me so easily with just a sentence. Yet , games which I prioritise, does not even rage me even to much extent. I do not really understand why must you say such things to provoke , is it intentional? Now, I find myself lost ,do you? But dun worry , I believe time is the best medicine for both of us. Let us live in the life of just being ourselves. No more changing, no more trying . I get back to enjoy my game, you get back to enjoy spending your money. It's good for us, both of us. I m truly upset with whom I have known and whom you have became.